Vision

God, what do YOU have for us next? How do YOU want to use us for your glory? Let it not be our desires but YOUR desires for us.

This is always my prayer when my mind starts running free with ideas for what’s next in our life. This was definitely my prayer last night as I drove home from dinner with some girlfriends. This past weekend, Hogan and I got away with each other to relax, enjoy time with each other, and pray over our life and year to come – a “vision retreat.” We prayed about clarity in why God put us together and how He wants to use us. We prayed over Wyatt but we also prayed about what our family will look like in the future – how many more kids, adoption, foster care, mentoring, etc. We don’t have answers yet but we are seeking them through prayer. And then yesterday, my mind started racing!  I think I found out 4 people were pregnant and was also involved in conversations regarding foster care. So then I started getting baby fever AND contemplating so many other options out there.

And then I calmed down and prayed.

 It’s so easy to get caught up in what others are doing. But God has his own plan for Hogan and I and he has his own plan for you. I can’t let what others are doing dictate our story. That is God’s job. The most beautiful thing in this life is that we each have our own unique story. Why in the world would we want it to look like someone else’s? Through seeking Jesus and delighting in Him, He tells us what to do next and He writes our story.

Hogan knows that his calling is to be a Dad. That could look like several different things but it helps guide us. I’m not sure how exactly to describe my heart. I guess in a general sense it’s a heart for outreach but more specifically I just want to love and help those that are neglected in some way. This leans more towards kids/teenagers in hurting/poor communities but I guess it could be anywhere. I want those kids to know they are LOVED and someone CARES. I want to be the one that loves them and cares for them. I had this heart before I had Wyatt but it’s much more prevalent now that I have my own child. I don’t know exactly what God is calling us to do next or when that time is but he’s definitely put something on our hearts to grow and I know that he will bring it to fruition in his timing.

So for now we pray. And we enjoy the blessings we have. And we keep our hearts close to his so we don’t miss anything He is calling us to do J